Smile is a long word...

Well i juz wanna say tt today is my sleeping day. "Why?", u might ask. Skipped morning lesson bcoz cud not wake in time and my stomach upset contribute to the reason of my absence. So, i continue sleeping till 10 am and head to skool for 12-3 pm lesson. It was a long and draggy lesson which i find uninterested in. The lecturer adds in the bore.

Here i want to complain to myself. Complain bout wat? About me skipping morning lessons. Yah... So many lesson skipped sia... Very slacked oredi nowadays. Haizz... Sumbody pls wake my senses up. Theres no sense of urgency sia. Sad...

Oh yah... i saw Pris juz now but never really get to chat wif her coz she boards the train and i m alighting from it. But i m very happy to see her sia. Very long never see. Its been a month since i last met up wif her. Very long sia. Hope to meet up wif her one of dis days. Thats all folks... Enjoy!!!

Dis is my time...

Will be posting a long post plus pictures.....

First of all, my season of inter poly-ite rugby games have juz ended last fri. We fared well as a team and manage to win 2 games out of 4. But we fared all 4 match wif full of intensity and dedication. Wif such attributes, a fruitful second place somewhat justify us the second place tt we are allocated. I wudnt be much happier than tt. From nothing, we are somewhere now. Sense of gratitude will be reached out ot my rugby teammates for guiding me thru all dis mnths. The journey has been smooth wif u all and its been pleasure playing wif u all. Thnx for landing me first rugby medal & i hope it wont be the last. *smiles*

After the prize presentation on friday, join half of the rugby guys for dinner at raffles burger king. After tt around 10pm meet Nerd at clark quay. Then meet Zhiwei, Eileen, Gary and Prada at a nearby coffeeshop. We all are attending a surprise gathering held by Ade for Zhi wei coz its his 19th birthday. We went to Party World KTV. First time go ktv sia. I was like, " Wah... happening sia....". After joining Ade and Zhi wei and birthday cake was cut and all. I was requested to sing a song to the birthday boy. Guess wat?... Yes.... It was Tong Hua.... I enjoy delivering it altho very paiseh... i hope it was gd... hehehe.. I had to leave the ktv at 12pm coz i got to report for werk on saturday morning. Gary was very nice to give me a lift to Bishan. Talked alot wif him in the car... Get to know him better.... A very great guy to know... Thnx Bro... As soon as i reach home i slept straight away.....

Saturday was a werking day and as for now Sunday noon, i m blogging away. Later got to look thru my notes for a lot of lessons i missed. Gotta to do some clean up to my room. Had to reject my mum's offer to follow her to visit relatives house. It seems very hectic.. But theres objective and i m gonna accomplish tt objective...

Lastly juz wanna say tt i missed some of my frens, those i seldom talk to, seldom met. My bzness contributes to the insufficient time to interact wif u guys. I promise i make time after dis... U are missed....

Lost but all is not lost.....

Updating dis wif feeling of sadness and boredom mix together. IVP rugby have started and so far its 1 win 1 loss for us. I m yet to feature for skool but the coach ask me to be ready. I want to play!! Simple as tt. I want to show wat i can do and contribute to the team. Dis Monday against RP, i wud die for to play against them.

Well juz wanna say i m stuck in the lost feelings. My mind playing games wif me. Now i can feel the pressure. Thoughts often haunt me. Will i raise my white flag or theres still light thru the dark tunnel. I m left undecided and still confused. Concentration is a bit off. Maybe i m a changed man and maybe i m not. I know dis is illusion but i m no magician. So lets juz wait as i think i cant do much. Wheres my sense of direction?

Painful Fact

Shall Move On.... Gradually

Hari Raya Feel

I am blogging morning of Hari Raya which i feel i need to. I felt better than i felt yesterday nite. Dunno y. Above are pictures of my house and room tt has been totally changed. Nice rite? Here i want to let out my feelings tt i have hide for along time. I think i m falling for her and i doubt tt she know about it. Kept thinking of her and cant stop doing tt. I hope to know her well and with the closeness i hope i can make sumthing out of it. My confidence are in a low when talking or meeting her coz i still feel the nerves talking to her. Sumtimes how i iwish i cud b fluent and more confident. Asking her out seems impossible but yet w/o trying i wudnt know. I wudnt have met a nicer gerl. She certainly made me a better man. Y am i still trapped in dis shy personality of mine. Maybe i juz have to wait. Wait till she knows. But when she knows, confirm i will feel paiseh. but then again i hope she know about my feelings twds her. Juz cant stop thinking of u. =)

Festivity Close In

I lost the mood of updating my blog for past few weeks, not bcoz i have nothing to post but sometimes i feel tt it is not necessary. My feelings entangled in a mixed for past few wks tt has left. Feelings sumtimes drips over a brimful cup tt hasnt been touched. Well feeling are juz feelings and theres nothing i can do but cheering me up myself wud be my agenda of my very day life. Even if its not on my side. As i am writing dis blows after blows of nagging occupy my deafening ears telling me to clean up my space. I must admit my room isnt the desired place to be looked at. But i m certainly gonna do sumthing about dis. Not now tho, as i m gg to buy some clothes for myself. Will b meeting my cuz at Suntec in an hour time.

Yesterday was the first day of skool and it does not goes as i wanted. I m suppose to be happy to meet up all my frens tt i miss for amnth of holidays. Started out well wif my grp project will be selected for exhibition and we must do some fine tuning to the poster. Then followed by lunch which came the pissed moment. I had brought bubble gum which was asked to buy by Pris when i went johor. She doesnt want to accept it when i offered her and she remarked as " My boyfren say cannot accept anything frm guys". I was like ... come on lah its onli gum... I am lying if i say i wasnt hurt. But then again i have no right to judge. Eventually the gums are distributed to my other frens which they happily appreciated. Well its juz gums, theres no need to ponder upon dis. Haizz... Will be leaving soon. I m gonna have my Pony sneakers. Yesh!!! To all my frens wherever it may be Happy Deepavali.... Selamat Hari Raya.... And Happy Holidays......

Left wif feeling of Discontent & Solitude..... =(