Lost but all is not lost.....

Updating dis wif feeling of sadness and boredom mix together. IVP rugby have started and so far its 1 win 1 loss for us. I m yet to feature for skool but the coach ask me to be ready. I want to play!! Simple as tt. I want to show wat i can do and contribute to the team. Dis Monday against RP, i wud die for to play against them.

Well juz wanna say i m stuck in the lost feelings. My mind playing games wif me. Now i can feel the pressure. Thoughts often haunt me. Will i raise my white flag or theres still light thru the dark tunnel. I m left undecided and still confused. Concentration is a bit off. Maybe i m a changed man and maybe i m not. I know dis is illusion but i m no magician. So lets juz wait as i think i cant do much. Wheres my sense of direction?